Friday, September 30, 2011
Empathy Hurts
As I took myself through the feelings step by step, I noticed that at a certain point I had to take my attention off myself. Some part of me did not like losing my attention. So that is certainly one reason people find empathy difficult. Then at another point I saw that I during empathy I feel the same emotion as the other person. If she felt sad, I felt sad. If she was angry, I felt angry. Since, like most people, I do not enjoy feeling sad or angry, I wanted out of the emotion. I wanted to feel better, so I immediately sought to make the other person feel better. I either wanted to console them or advise them.
Two experiences make empathy difficult, having to focus exclusively on someone else for a few moments and feel what they are feeling. We become like a tuning fork resonating to the pitch of A. The other person is vibrating at sad frequency and we attune to it. However that's not the final piece. For I must also know in my heart that pain is OK. It's like taking your child to the doctor for a vaccination. You feel the child's fear, resonate to it, while at the same time knowing that her fear is OK.
You match the child's frequency. The child feels that you understand. The child feels heard, and so doesn't feel the need to fight against his own feelings. He doesn't have to stuff the feelings down, ignore them, or belittle them. If you are calm with his fear, then so is he!
The fear is free to work itself out on its own. And it does. What a gift your presence has given this child.
But what I notice is, that to do this, one must have faith in the experience of natural pain. (meaning pain that comes naturally from life experiences) All our lives we are told that pain is bad. That pain may even be a sign of moral weakness. Drug companies and chocolate makers bank on our fear of painful emotions. But we are more than physical bodies. Our souls journey toward wisdom and meaning. All emotions bring valuable information to us. To suppress them or advise them away is to lose their messages.
Just for fun imagine that you lived in a society that frowned on laughter. (I think the Puritans might have been such a society) If every time you laughed someone tried to help you suppress it, what would you lose? Wouldn't that be weird? Fortunately we live in a culture that trusts laughter's effect on us.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
How to make self-judging fun
In response to an email about judging oneself harshly for judging oneself;
The part of you that judges is
the part of the brain devoted to making sure you can fit into this culture.
If
you think about it, every judgment you have comes from somebody else. I notice
that I have no
judgments about purple spotted kitterwogs, for example, because
I have never heard anyone talk about
them. If one could imagine our culture as
a field of thoughts and beliefs, then judgments could be seen
as floating
around that field. As we grow up we tune into the field and are programmed by
repetition.
Nothing about judgments are personal. When I meditate I watch the
judgment thoughts as they float
through, I can really feel how they are not
personal to me. I see myself as merely the receptacle for
the culture’s field.
I can’t help my judgments anymore than I can help what the current fashions are or
the kind of city I live in
It has all been decided for me.
As I watch me make judgments, I
notice that there are two me’s watching. One ‘me’ is a continuance of
the
cultured mind. That me is judgmental of my judgments because in this culture we
are fond of making
people feel guilty for the very things they have been
taught. The other ‘me’ is strictly an observer. She has
no judgment. She seems
to look on with what I would call compassionate interest. She is actually
more
of a Me than me. When I look through her eyes, I see “my” thoughts as not “my”
thoughts.
I see the judging self as just a wonderful example of this culture,
but I also experience myself as
more than this judging self. I experience
myself as this loving watcher as well.
Now I notice that judgments still
pass through me. I still judge the driver in front of me, the authority
figure
blocking me, my ability to stay on a diet, and so on. And then I notice that I
judge my judging.
And then I notice that everything I just thought was taught
to me by somebody and is not personal to me.
I suspect that you know all of this already, but
your description of judgment inspired me to remember
about the impersonal
nature of our thoughts. We think our thoughts are ours, but they are not.
I
think that is very cool. From this perspective, it’s even possible to have fun
with thoughts
and beliefs like judgments. There’s something about seeing this
culture stamped inside of me
that is funny. I have this whole thing about aging
right now. It’s so interesting to watch these
taught beliefs about my
attractiveness and vitality seeping away. If I were in another culture,
I might
look forward to aging as a time of great status. Now I fear it for loss of
status.
My mind is just playing out this culture’s meme about aging and
here’s
the kicker - there’s nothing my mind can do about it.
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Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Feeling Heard
I just love that feeling. There is such a giant difference between communicating with the heart and the head. Communicating with the heart means you resonate with the other person's experience. You don't try to fix it. You don't try to change it. You don't judge it. The heart joins. There is one place we do this easily. Laughing. When a friend is laughing, we join in or if we don't get the joke, we smile in resonance with their obvious good time. It wouldn't occur to us to try to change their laughter or advise them out of it.
We think that we have to help a sad or angry person out of their unhappy state. But trying to change their experience is just as invasive as trying to change a laughing person's experience. It's the experience that counts! Isn't that interesting? Our experiences bring us wisdom. We need to have them fully. We want others to witness our experience and then speak from the heart that they witnessed us. Just like the mother poodle in the cartoon.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Age of Heart
Friday, September 23, 2011
When the Universe sends a Message
I admit that I follow his instructions with a level of distrust. My mind scoffs at his instructions asking for me to draw the energy of a feeling or act it out. It sounds really silly. And I think I must look silly bending and waving my body. Fortunately everyone else is gyrating around too. (Funny what we will do if others are doing it, too, no?) But then a real insight actually comes into my mind! It's like magic.
Who knew the body was so wise?
Raphael Cushnir says that emotions have a message and that when we avoid our emotions with addictions, we don't get the message. The message then uses dreams, life events, and illness to try to get our attention. Only be allowing the feeling to live within us, and only by being compassionate with that emotion, can the message it carries live within us. I think that Arny's work is very similar. Arny says that the Universe as a consciousness sends us messages and that if we resist the message by avoiding it with addiction or putting it down as silly, the message will try to get through as illness, dreams, and unconscious behavior. Both Raphael and Arny use acceptance as a key part of their healing work. But Arny uses the wisdom inherent in the body, too. It turns out the body is smarter than I thought.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Connecting Frequencies
Christina was warm and funny. She made the me feel welcome and comfortable.
A musician played crystal bowls. I hadn't heard those bowls before in person. The vibrations go right through the body. They sound ethereal and feel soothing. It's easy to meditate in such an atmosphere.
I also noticed that the sounds helped to create a sense of harmony and lightness in the room of people. Which makes me wonder - what would happen if all meetings started with good harmonics? What if before a meeting started - everyone chanted together, or played drums together, or anything that helped create a sense of connected frequencies?
And isn't empathy a kind of resonance? When I empathize with someone, I am resonating with their experience. I am tuning in to their frequency. I feel as they do, like a tuning fork picking up a tone. Everyone craves empathy. Try it. Next time someone tells you something, do not give any advice or console them, instead empathize with their experience:
"My boss probably thinks I don't know my job."
(It's tempting to console like this - "That's not true!", but instead empathize like this)
"You sound discouraged. Did something happen today to make you feel incompetent?"
(Now the person will turn up their emotional frequency a little louder, because they can feel the attention and care)
"Yes! I totally goofed up a report. And it was my fault, too. I put in the wrong figures."
"Oh that can be so embarrassing when that happens! It sounds like you're worried that she will look down on you after this." (still resonating with the friend's experience)
"I KNOW she will. I feel so stupid."
"Have you lost hope?"
"Maybe, a little, mostly I feel stupid."
"Are you mostly mad at yourself?"
"Yeah, I am. Maybe she isn't that upset, but I'm pissed with myself."
"I am so much harder on myself than anyone else is. That's what it sounds like you have going on.
Self punishment is us!" (See how this person continues to hold her friend's frequency? But now it has shifted by itself. Watch.)
"Oh yeah, That is so true. I am so hard on myself, it's ridiculous. I had me losing this job and you know what, I'm really good at it and my boss knows that, and anyone can make a mistake. Geez. I always think I should be perfect."
"I know how it is. Do you feel better now?"
"Yeah, weirdly enough, I do. Thanks for listening."
The above conversation is based on real situations I've been in. Empathy is resonating with the other person like a harmony. It's very healing.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Process Work Institute again
In the forum last week, one woman stood up and spoke for the billionaires, since we had no billionaires attending the forum. In a discussion about economics, she thought that the billionaires would have a view. Especially since some of us were trashing them from our point of view! She was not attacked. Everyone understood the valuable function she played. Others joined her who could identify in some way with her point of view.
The result? Much more compassion and a recognition that solutions are not simple. The forum was practice for a group of students, so we only met for a couple hours. I believe that if we could meet over several days with this sort of listening and empathizing with a variety of view points, we would reach real depth in our conversation and a glimmer of what a real solution might actually look like.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Do I Join?
Later, she said she felt heard, so obviously she is so used to boulders she doesn’t register them as blocks anymore. Earlier, when she was asking for a facilitator to help make the conversation safer, I got all excited, because that is what I do. I make it safe for everyone to talk in a group. But the men didn’t think that would be necessary, they were doing it already, they said. I about wet my pants with frustration, but since I was a visitor I kept mum.
Party On!
Friday, September 16, 2011
Process Work Institute
So last night, I got to see all these beliefs in action and wow! how inspiring. There were four main presenters. Then there were about 10 helpers and the teacher. The presenters presented the topic and then fielded questions and comments. The helpers sought out triggered people and helped them on the spot. One woman kept saying inappropriate things, by her body language I guessed something was not quite right, so several helpers immediately came to her side to listen to her quietly and answer her questions in a way that did not disturb the larger group. Another person started crying and tissues appeared. Later two factions began to argue and the students worked to be sure both sides received fair time to say what they wanted. The facilitators also translated shaming language into empathetic language. Every so often one of the facilitators would sum up what was being said, or go over the major themes we had discussed to give us a bird's eye view of what was happening.
I saw a group of fifty people supported, and it really did feel like support, to communicate at the most vulnerable and deep levels. It was like watching a dance; like a dance of emotions. I was so delighted watching the students work. I just knew group process could look this connected. I can't wait to see more.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Peace Week 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
Department of Motor Vehicles
Saturday, September 10, 2011
The Sacrifice in Mongolia
Sometimes I hear a story that puts my culture into such stark contrast with another that I am atomized for a moment; my worldview blown apart. Last night I heard such a story.
A storyteller told a story of her trip to Mongolia, where she had the opportunity to live among the nomadic people of the plains for one week. Once she settled into their daily routines, she enjoyed the simplicity and beauty of her surroundings. Everything was made out of wool: the yurt covers, rugs, pillows, blankets, and clothes. She said the smell of sheep was everywhere inside the home and outside with the living herds of sheep. Each night, the family would gather around the grandfather as he told stories.
On the last full day of her stay, the family told her they would have a big good-bye party for her and invite neighboring families. That afternoon, the grandfather motioned her over to him. He had the ewe that had been tied near the yurt with him. Lynn had grown fond of the ewe and had pet her each time she walked past.
The grandfather was stroking the animal and so Lynn began petting her, too. Then he began to sing to her and talk in her ear. He lifted her into his lap and the ewe settled happily into his stroking hands. When she became still from the song and touch, he took out a long knife and slit her belly. She did not move. He continued to sing to her and talk to her and pet her. Then he took Lynn’s hand in his own and reached up into the belly, took the heart and put a gently pressure on it until it stopped beating, all the while singing. Then she and the grandfather worked together to prepare the sheep for the meal later in the day.
She said that it was the most spiritual feeling of connection and gratitude that she had ever felt in her life.
Except for the actual killing and eating of lamb, there is nothing about this story that is similar to my culture. I keep wondering what the world must look like to a people who are so sensitive and attuned to that which completely sustains them. What does that level of gratitude and respect feel like? What is it like to believe in taking time to make a sacred bond when there is no efficient-bottom-line reason to do so? It’s this kind of time, patience, and care that I want so much for people to do with one another. Here are people who are so full of respect; they make time for the feelings and spiritual experience of an ewe. I am humbled. I’m also grateful for their example of the depths we humans are capable of.